Imbecile

2005-06-12T00:59:00.000+08:00

This is (VERY SADLY) the best grp pic we ever took. lol

2005-04-11T01:12:00.000+08:00

please relink (=

2005-04-09T01:30:00.000+08:00

Yawnnnns.. i feel so shagged!
Towned today. Sigh i wanna shoppppp.. like shop properly. Slowly browse around, try here there everywhere.
I wanna shop and be able to BUY. Not window-shop ok.. ive been doing so much window shopping.
IT KILLS!! lol tempt me only.. thank god for my *ahem* self control (: But it really truly suck when u like that top so much and u know that it will soon belong to someone else............ right girls?

Me got so many things i wanna buy..
oOoo plus i cant seem to find a nice shimmery belt !!! %$&#&^$% crap.

Btw the movie 'Secret Society' SUCKS BIG TIME.
Dont catch it alright? im warning u.. do NOT watch it.
So draggy and.. boring. Unless u wanna see some fat boobies =x But it's really not worth it at all. Maybe u can try watching @ Princess.. hahaha

I totally hate the whole Poly Enrolment thing !!!
It sucks because it's so complicated and troublesome;
with the whole medical checkup and passport-sized photos thing.
I hate passport-sized photos.. lol. I never look good in them. That's why i pasted a garfield sticker over my ezlink card! Garfield looks 10 times cuter. Can i do that on the poly card too? =p

Ahhhh omg i cant even open my eyes.
Goodnighties everybody =)))))

2005-04-07T02:05:00.000+08:00

Hmmmmm and i think someone can just shoot me dead!!
Because i forgot to bring my house keys out again today. &*^%R@$ this is like the 100th time. (ok lah not so many) And when i called my mum to come home, she was like saying my father wil be home soon. Then i waited and waited like an idiot.. no one appeared. So then nvm.. i asked my brother but he say tt he's not coming home so early (obviously, he chose his gf over me. HIS SISTER OF 17 YRS. BLOOD related somemore. *grumbles*). So i ended up at the void deck doing nth.. thank god for my mp3 player. THANK GOD SERIOUSLY. If not i think i will rot and... stink? ya whatever hahaha

Haiyo i nag so much.. ahaha
Today is really a veryvery Sinful day. I spent so much money on practically nth? I dont mind if i spent alot on let's say 10 things. But it sucks when u spent alot on only a few things.. shows how wasteful u are/i am. =l I will actually really feel bad about myself spending too much.. MY HARD EARNED $$$
Not easy aye. Oh plus i ate so much today! think im gonna die financially and fatticially. =/// it's bad badddddd

Yawns im tired. wheeeezzz!! I really like to type alot now.. haha =)
I need a job. Smth.. not long lasting yet with good money. Impossible right !? lol i thought so.

Goodnight
I dont want worse eyebags =p (but look at the time now. lol!)

2005-04-05T02:51:00.000+08:00

Here I am, once again
Im torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought u were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you wont get to see the tears i cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I like Kelly Clarkson's songs =p
And i think she's damn lucky.. thanks to the idol competition for her luxury life now. She dont (more like WONT) have to worry bout $$ in her years to come!! yeeeeee how i envy.
Hope i strike lottery; 1 million dollars!! lol i think if that really happened, i will get stroke and die on the spot. HAHAHAHA thing about me is i tend to think too much..

Hrmm I went to work today! Aiyo what to do.. the supervisor like me too much. She called me back to help with the folding because obviously *ahem* my foldings rock. She called at 2pm and i went down at 3pm! Omg i rock. Hahaaa ok she just needed my help because the BIGBIGBIGBIGBIGBIG boss is going over tmr for.. i-dono-what. Bah she need help then call me. Of course im not stupid either - i got paid!
Im looking hard for a job now actually.. i want really good ones but its hard because sch's starting and nobody will be so stupid to hire me right? lol

Errrrr i dont know what to blog about. Let's be random.
I like Avril's my happy ending because it means smth to me.. (and u wont know what it is) Jason Mraz's the remedy rockkkkkk and he sounds like a black!!
Jennifer lopaz is damn skinny but i like Namie Amuro more, she' s sexier (red is sexy).
Hmmmmmm let's see.. i feel like peeing now. but very lazy to move.. hahaha
And i noticed i always say 'and' because its the only conjunction i know. wow.. conjunction. i miss English. ya right.
I'm in love with Ralph Lauren's new perfume.. very nice. but im too broke to buy.

OH YEAH I FORGOT TO MENTION THAT JIL IS BACK from down under for a holiday. Awwwww and we met up, and caught a movie and we coffee club-ed as usual and i love her so much! i can die.
ahaah im overreacting. But it felt good talking to her. But we had to leave because of some idiot lah.. LMAO

ALRIGHT i think my blog is damn boring. Stop reading ok?
Im just typing for myself to read. plus i FEEL like typing.
and thats my problem. sorry. lol

BYEEEEEEE.
i always take so long to blog.. hahaha believe it or not, i started at 0205?
i just chat too much.

i feel high.

2005-04-02T03:34:00.000+08:00

I havent blog for so long! errr i meant a few days.
Which is in my opinion, quite long. hahaha =p

Havent been doing much lately.. just working and working.
ooh and i went sentosa that day! Finally found the billabong.. haha and the girl (shopkeeper?) is very pretty!! Guys can go check it out. lol
Anyhoooos, i have officially quitted from Fox Kids TM!! wheeee AND boOoo..
because i am jobless and i think i will need cash. lol so contradicting.. cant stand myself !! @&!^$!#@
Anyway, before i left, i 'stole' a Fox Kids Catalog from the shop. ahhaha! catch me if you can =p
theres this very cute/goodlooking kid inside and the catalog is really quite well done! im impressed cause when i see those real kids wear.. seem so normal and not-as-nice. i wonder why?

Went back to school today andddddd i finally get to see my friends!
=D alright i miss them, i do. but i really do not miss school. I have friends who are taking Olevels this year and i feel so sad/stressed for them. I know it sucks but hang on there okay? (((: the sun always shines.. lol crap.
Im just glad that ive gotten through this phrase of my life and am movin on.. still cant accept the fact man!! hahaha

I MADE IT I MADE IT I MADE IT!!!! =O
%&#$HGHFGFHTRJ$&UJ$R&%(O*UYJNHGVB#!@!~``
ahahaha that is how excited i am.
i feel good bout tt~~ real good

But im (with every other dragons) gonna continue on with the next stage of my Life.. and im sure i will be damn x10! happy to get over all the exams and crap again. hoho! I sound like im anticipating Poly when im actually really not. LOL whatever
i dont know what i want..................................... im fussy.

Oook GTG mum is here!!!!
(right, at THIS time. she's awake still.)

2005-03-28T00:22:00.000+08:00

im back and i feel so darn good!! haha woohoo! good to be awy..
but im not really happy to be back. ok who doesnt like holidays right?

although i was the only girl, the trip was suprisingly not bad. haha would have been better with jilly ardddd.. (ey 31st march? :DD cant wait) anyway, the guys were good to me la. LOL.

so lazy to update, so here's a summary :
- draggy bus ride
- tiny hotel room. lol
- arcade and more arcade; 3000 tickets! haha
- pools and billards (those guys.. grr)
- caught the eye at 0115am!! i or rather, we almost died. soooooo tired. and their cinema is so cramp.
- theme park with irritating crowds and stupid rain. ok let me elaborate on this.. thing is, we queued for almost an hour for the stupid go-karts. (thanks to mr melvin seah who wants to try it) i even had to rent shoes which suck so bad just to take the ride. thennnnnn when it was finally our turn next, IT STARTED TO RAIN HEAVILY!!! !%@#&%$ how shitty can things get huh!!? bah anyway we skipped the ride after trying to wait for the rain to stop. lol and we got wet from all the running.. feels like 2.4km run! really. and i love the space shot ride =D they were funny when we were up there. hahahahaaha
- ripley's exibits; very interesting
- more arcades, billards and bowling
- mini shoppinggggg (:

err that didnt looked like a summary to me. aiyah whatever. hehe
back to topic, the food there is so ex!! and it's so damn salty. can die.
one scoop of cup ice-cream with chocolate topping costs S$8 !!! =o and its not like it's haagen dazz or whatever.. haha. OH and guess who i met over there!!!? u will never guess it. it's..
Yvonne and Dunjiu!!! omfg X100
waaaa i had the shock of my life man! and i think they did too. hahahaha i went like "DUNJIU!! (then i saw yvonne..) eh? OMG what are u all doing here?!" then he went "what are YOU doing here?" lmao!! his expression is so funny. you should have seen. anyway they look so sweet =) okokok enough.

im sooo tired. TUAS was so freakin congested. like jam for 3 hours.. kuku! thank god for discman, handphone, magazines, tv and FOOD.and poeple of course. lol i hate the weather in Spore.. so hot/humid. sigh
im tired but im going out tmr at 9 am maybe? aaaaaahh wanna quit my job but sch's starting in May! so how? stressed.

im missing the fun from the past days already. miss miss miss MISSING everything. badly.

2005-03-22T00:13:00.000+08:00

i suddenly have this weird feeling coming over me..
is there a word for it? i think there is. but i dont know what. anybody knows?

i think it's funny how some people dare to pursue their dreams..
even if it means ultimate embarassment or hard work? i totally respect them for that!!
because i dont think im up to it. im a like a pockpockkeh chicken =l
that's just too bad? somebody please give me some courage.
aaaah we'll find out our postings tmr!
haha i dont even feel scared or excited about it because im not even interested in poly now/yet.
sigh here we go again.. study study study, exams exams EXAMS. damnit how many times must we go through this? what do we actually live for? to study, earn money, get married, die and go heaven??!!??!? the end full stop . ?! i thought we should be having fun with our loved ones, enjoying every special moment? or enjoy life itself?

anyway that was just some random thoughts.

i hate it when those feelings come to me.

2005-03-21T00:19:00.000+08:00

what a Great day today was (:
but afternoon was freaking hot lah.. i almost died-ed
perspire right infront of the fan.. my brother's fan suck x10 !!
and his chair too.. u should see the state of it.

wheeee tmr off again! mwuahaha im loving it
but im gonna feel damn sad on the 7th (my pay day)
oh bother, im living for today! lol righttttt
ah i found an old primary sch mate online today and im so damn happy!
missed him and everyone so much.. so much memories at the back of our sch bus =D u know how hard it is for me to meet even ONE of my pri sch mate on the streets.. the chances are a 1:10 ratio. now look!! look at the amazing things msn/friendster does! lol

hahaha i just found a DAMN funny video online
ahahahahahaaahaah here goes, just click on the link ;
http://media.ebaumsworld.com/index.php?e=useglue.wmv
okay im laughing but i feel so bad for him! seriously. the crowd laugh like as if the roof will drop -.- must be damn embarassing. lol but its really funny lah.. he's a politician u know?!?! hahahaha

LMAO look what ramli said.
INEQUALITY FACED BY MUSLIM WOMEN?!?!?! BUTO ARH IF DUN LIKE FUCK OFF ARH U.S.A. CB ISRAEL BURN IN HELL [SICK SICK says:
HE SURE GO DENTIST
INEQUALITY FACED BY MUSLIM WOMEN?!?!?! BUTO ARH IF DUN LIKE FUCK OFF ARH U.S.A. CB ISRAEL BURN IN HELL [SICK SICK says:
SCOLD LOTSA VULGAR
hahaahaha damn funny. okokok im not gonna be so mean and crazy.. STOP.

feel so shagged.
still, im gonna watch tv! haha bye
all of a sudden i feel like watching jap serials? (thanks to sab lah! hee)

2005-03-19T15:11:00.000+08:00

omg any idea how bored it can get staying home..
my bad. i skipped work =x best part is i dont need an MC! mwuahaha
i just felt damn x100 lazy but let me tell u how many off days i have coming up
alright here goes ; sunday, monday and from thursday to tuesday.
THAT IS LIKE 8 DAYS IN LESS THAN 2 WEEKS =o
ohh my money. haha my pay is miserable but i dont know whether i should get another job.
this is confusing and infuriating !! ARGH I HAAAAATE ^*&*%%$@
i really want $ to do alotalot of things.

actually some of the off days are taken because im going to malaysiaaa (yawns) i havent been there since forever.. like 2-3 years? used to frequent there.
and im going with all the guys!! (jilly, WHERE ARE YOUUUUU. but thank god ur sis is going.. wish u were here darling. really.)
im not excited about it yet but i hope it will turn out fun *fingers crossed*
its never bad to get away from work, and life itself.

im not looking forward to poly at all =l
if i had to choose, i think i'd rather work than study.
at least u dont need to take exams when u work.. exams sucks like effin (compliments of jilly. LMAO) much!

i feel like skydiving. haha
crap im going to sleep! talking bout sleep, my brother is still sleeping.
and i wanna catch the movie called Alot Of Love. or smth like that..

byeee

2005-03-15T23:06:00.000+08:00

argh im down with a flu.
and i reckon today is a badbad day for me

i slept like freaking late last night and i had to wake up at 830 for work
so im very tired.. and i have to keep a smile like this =D wide to serve those aunties *roll eyes*
then, FINALLY it's 6pm and when i was in the lift, i suddenly remember that i forgot to bring my keys.
fuck how bad can my day get?!?! :( so i went to sit at my void deck
looking at all those happy little innocent kids.. running around as if the sun never sets. all they do is play, sweat, laugh, fall down, cry and the end.
i wish i was as carefree as them. (not that im very troubled but being a kid is never bad)
anyways, i was alr feeling sick but it was SO windy at my void deck -.-
blahblahblah i think i sat for an hour before my dad came home *pouts

anyhow i think im hooked on KFC
i eat it for lunch/dinner almost everyday lol
but not today lah.. im gonna stop. its scary.

i feel like taking MC tmr
but hais.... nvm.
tomorrow will be a better day?
ok im out, goodnight.

2005-03-11T16:10:00.000+08:00

last night, my mommie told me that she dreamt that she sent me to USA to study.. hmmmm

HOW I WISH AND WISH AND WISH
....

lol wishes never come true. even my mom was laughing at her dream knowing that it wont happen.
okay lah anyway life has been so normal. working as usual
but im gonna be working less! because my new supervisor that sucker, Best, wants to cut down on part-timer's job hours. like shit her!?! ok nvm.. i just hope she leaves soon if not almost all of us will be leaving. hoho! goodbye fox kids.

i dont know why i get a headache everytime i stay at home on afternoons.
the heat kills, even when the fan is right beside my head (ok not so near but u get my meaninggg)
i havent gone shopping for quite awhile! so just now i wanted to go shopping alone since no one is free but!! laziness stopped me.
i really cant stand myself sometimes. hahaha
should i get a jacket or shoes? ive been wanting one jacket.. but it seems so impractical. okay i shall not waste money on it. lol im gonna get shoes! yabadabadooooo

i need a break. i wanna go overseas.
$$$ ? OH AND $$ REMINDS ME THAT MY PAY SUCKS :(
and CPF had to make me feel worse.

2005-03-06T21:10:00.000+08:00

hahaha alrighto ive got two words to describe today - tiring yet fun
u see, i woke up at 8 and i slept at like ard 2am! omg

i was suppose to meet sab and angie at 9 for this free dance classes thingie because we wanted to catch the hiphop class (which was the FIRST lesson of the day. *grumbles*) BUT WE MISSED IT ANYHOW.
hahahaha all of us were late but also thanks to the rain which got us stucked and drenched =l
anyway we went in the next class which was lyrical jazz (:
it was fun! at least better then i expected.. hahahaha and the guy instructor is damn funny; his last step. LMAO but he's damn good.. very flexible.
street jazz and pure funk was too full. sad.

just as we thought we lost ABIT of our fats, we went to coffee club for a feast. HAHAHAHA aiyah nvm.. (consoling myself)
and smth funny happened at yoshinoya. the egg face BAHAHAAHAAHAHAHAWAHA oops. inside joke.
so anyway the movie, a series of unfortunate events is damn nice! go catch it ok? the baby is sosososo cute.. lol
my throat hurts more now thanks to Mr Pringles *yawns* ouch.

time to sleep! working morning tmr.. buhbye!

i love u girls =D

2005-03-05T01:20:00.000+08:00

all of a sudden, i miss my past so much.

the past when i was still a kid. the fun i had.. the no-work life. no complications. no relationships. the trips to everywhere. the friends i made. weiling xueling meiling xiaohui dianna bernard chelsea.. blahblahblah. the pillow fights. the hotel room. the rides. the last minute staying over. the people** at that time.
so sweet memories.. so pure, naive & innocent. sadly, only photos are left ?! i dont even have photos for some of those memories......

its amazing how time only moves forward, isnt it ?
funny how u look back on stuff and feel funny

AHHHHHHH..

I MISS EVERYTHINGGGGGGG :((

i miss aussie. and my cousie.

i wonder how pple get 4 points to get into hwa chong
are they human ???

2005-03-02T13:00:00.000+08:00

okay so the whole results thing is over =D finally
cant believe i got over the whole thanggg
i did much better than i expected myself to do but its not that good still lah.. lol
good enough for me.
dont expect too much in ur life.. happiness is what matters.
hearty cheers for pple who didnt do as high they expected. dont worry too much; this is not the end alright (:

anyway i bet everyone is SO stressed bout choosing courses now.. including me. it sucks because we have to make a 'decision of our life' which we might come to regret in the future. bleh
and like i mentioned in the previous posttt, REGRETNESS SUCKS LIKE HELL !!
im thinking of law or biomedical or i-dono-what-shit. hahahaha see how lah!
and filling up a 12 choices is a chore man =/

i queued like siao at tm cpf for the Singpass yst. a freaking total of 2 HOURS AND GUESS WHAT?! RIGHT, I DIDNT EVEN GET IT. #$#%$&% *insert swearings*
made me late for work at the veryvery right time ahhh (sacarstic)
well my new supervisor came yst! ahahaha
okok she didnt scold me of course but she i dont really like her.
her name is bestina. but she ask us to call her BEST. lol weird right
shes quite nice actually but she just doesnt seem click with us yet ? *shrugs*
maybe its called the generation gap she looks very old for her age =l

okay lah im going out today! i got two days straight OFF DAYS
mwuahaha feeling so high. ciao my friends!!

not a part of my life anymore

2005-02-27T22:44:00.000+08:00

wow the results are out tmr.. amazingly quick!
just on friday, i was saying "aiyah two more days.. still very long" and BASKET it felt like i just said it today?!?
but i think its because work has been quite tough recently; transferring things in and out. making time pass like a mad cheetah.

i hope i can get less den 20 points but.. yeah u get the meaning.
i am damn (x1000) nervous now. im feeling the cringe! (already)
omg, my 4 years of hardwork might come down to a shitness of 26 points or worse =/ i feel bad. i should have studied more/harder?
I KNEW I WILL REGRET.

regretness sucks, big fat time.

guess what? i still dono what course i wanna go into***
AND i still havent get my Singpass!! argh #$%$&^% everything is irritating me now. goodluck to me and every other dragon babies.. hang on there.

girls dont like boys, girls like cars and money?

NOT TRUE

2005-02-24T10:24:00.000+08:00

ok ignore the previous post, i was feeling some crazy feelings.

anyway i didnt know that watching a movie can make u so damn tired. hahaha!
u can like squeeze the other person's hand when u get so excited until like omg it REALLY (and i mean. really) hurts! lol and hide and seek is nice. its worth the money, its thrilling and its just nice lah! go catch it, gogogo

hrmm i feel so bad..and FAT lol
i spent soooo much yst. buying things and eating, gooooddness but i was so hungry that i was shivering u know. so u cant blame me for spending on food. anyway i think spending $ on food is muchmuch more worth than spending on rubbish stuff =D
plus i havent really spent money since i started working so its not that bad right? err yah i think so =p
haha alright as long as im happy, why should i think so much right? at least im earning money now.. hehheh

have i mention that i hate crows!!??!
they are the most disgusting thing on Earth. dirty and scary (like they peck on pple's head) and ARGH i just feel like killing them all!! %$^#%$&^#@
I HATE CROWSSS.

our results are coming out on the 28th right? not tmr.. its confirmed i think.
i saw the MOE website. freaking.... im gonna die of anxiety.
bah i better go shower if not i will be late! im going home early to watch sab's show. hehe

i love my nail colour (:

2005-02-20T23:34:00.000+08:00

i feel like cursing and swearing like a crazy asshole.
i feel like giving up on all the things in my life at this moment.
i realised that there are too many things im unclear about.. too many things i dont know. what do i really want.. WHAT!?!?
and what is wrong with you. ure making me hate u. maybe just for this moment (i hope) but its that bad anyway

argh mailto:#$#@&^($#%#&^(&^*

the results is gonna turn out bad.. im quite sure of it.
freako, even my mum thinks so!?! and the whole comparing thing is gonna begin again.. fuck i hate that the MOST.
all the aunties are gonna call and blahblahblah
whats wrong with them?!?! its none of their business right.. just go away? (or fuck off) ive had enough of it in p6 okay thanks.

forget it.. enough frustrating stuff.

empty frames, pictures torn apart.
what are we supposed to do?
when everything goes wrong..

2005-02-20T00:29:00.000+08:00

can everybody STOP talking bout the MOE letter?
its scary and.. scary.
anyway we re getting back results next friday so please stop talking about it because that alone is scary enough! grrr
i still have nothing (no course) in mind, and i am going to die.
shit lahhh? i hate all these decision-makings.
me not ready for the future; MY future!!

ahh anyway rmb i said im working FULL today?
it really wasnt that bad.. infact it felt like a normal day man. haha
i think its because i talk alot. hehe but im lovin it :)
should i contd to work while studying? i really dont know!!
seeeeeee, i never know anything.

not ready.
not ready.
i am not ready for anything!

i think im quite young and childish.. lol yuck.
okay off-topic..argh i better go. im on morning shift tmr!
good because can leave work earlier but bad because must wake up at 830!
double boooo

alrighto nighties lovelies~
and im leaving u with my super adorable niece, Christ-Lyn. =DD

i wish i was HALF as cute as her.. haha

and incase ure wondering how she looks when she sleeps.. HAHA

im gonna sleep like her tonight =p

AND I REALLY WANNA CATCH A MOVIEEE

2005-02-18T16:32:00.000+08:00

wheee new layout =)
abit plain eh.. nevermind.

hoho! when i blog in the afternoon, u know its my off day.
shiok.. but im working FULL tmr! its tough but i calculated;
if i work on this sat and sun, im gonna earn 93 bucks! woohoo!
hahaha money minded. who isnt? =p

im sweating like siao infront of the computer!!
the weather just suck today, like now. feel like screaming my head off %$^%*
PLEASE RAIN! u know it always rains at the wrong time? like when im going out it just starts pouring yet when im home and feeling like a piece of ROASTED PORK, it just wouldnt rain. grrr

oh and i read Xiaxue's blog and she mentioned that on cny chu xi we are suppose to stay up late because its said that staying up late will aid our parents to live up to a ripe old age. HOW COME NOBODY TOLD ME THAT !!?!? i think i slept damn early that night.. shit nooo hahaha! okay superstitions (correct spelling?)
im not falling for it. hehe

ahh im getting all sticky.. off to bathe, buhbye!

2005-02-16T23:53:00.000+08:00

angela is addicted to melVIN
whats the point ?! hahaha he is funny right.. admit it my cousins rock (:

my computer has been taken for repair!! (thank god i just cleaned it during newyr, no dust!) woohoo the man said no data will be lost and i sure hope its true because i have TOO many treasures in it, please!

my room is damn messy now already. shit
have i mentioned that i counted my CNY angbao money ? hehheh is my answer for whether its good or bad =p staying hm today made me think bout olevels results..

FREAKING SCARY
im worried that my results will be a boo

plus abby wasnt making me feel any better. hahaah she was complaining aaaall the way from jurong to changi airport ma.. scared scared scared, make me scared only! haha

and... i dont think i have anything else to blog about. lol
blogger has just been like an online friend. people talk to it when theyre bored, sad, happy or feeling any kinda crap. well im saying its a good thing! blogging is addictive? yeah maybe

and in case ure wondering why in my previous post i concluded to 'tie ur hair when u take the freefall ride'
reason because i heard the story of a girl whose hair got entangled in the ride during the vertical fall and her hair obviously got ripped off her head. IMAGINE UR FREAKING HAIR GETTING RIPPED OFF WITH UR SKIN!! LIKE OMFG RIGHT #$!#%^#@
its a real story.. happened in Genting but i cant seem to find any news online but i know that they changed the name of the ride from Celero Shot to Space shot. so yeah maybe thats why.. im saying maybe!

i dont know why, but im looking forward to work tmr x)

2005-02-15T12:27:00.000+08:00

argh!! ive got work today.. totally wreck my whole mood :(
i cant seem to get to bed early these days.. its like i slp at 3-4am and i wake up at 10am!! bleah or maybe its because of my home alone feeling lol
my parents re awy in malaysia and u know how much it sucks to reach home late at night to enter a house of silence + emptiness? well, try it urself =p

yst was a bad yet good vday i should say?
bad in a way that i didnt get to catch any movie and my cousie left!
THATS IT. no more late late late nights out and she will be experiencing a whole new life over there..
gosh, i miss her lah! although i dream that i can go over to.. but nvm she will be back. hehe
and it was good in a way that i spent alot of time laughing. lol
whats the point?! lmao! samuel korkor is the funniest idiot on Earth! hahaah the worse thing is he's married with two kids! unbelivable? believe it. =D
and his kids are the cutiestttttt

so anyway, the conculsions of the day are :
- the police is samuel's friend
- gays face retribution ahha
- melvin will never date angela (rofl!)
- drinking, smoking, piercing ear hole? WHATS THE POINT!! hahahaha
- tie ur hair when u take the freefall ride

okay time to bathe.. but i really dont care if im late. i hate the shitty weather.
oh yeah!! my computer broke down again!!

we were all in love
and we all got hurt

2005-02-11T01:18:00.000+08:00

today's intake was bad......
hahaha okay please do not think that im a money minded girl because i really am.. not!!

have i mention that alot of my cousins have babies/kids now?
on my mum's side.. theres like 3? and my dad's side has 4!
all of them are sooooo adorable! i cant wait to have my own kids BUT i hate to see all my aunties fuss around with them.. lol im so mean right. call that protective =p

one of my cousins got married in England with an angmoh. i waannt! haha the whole time they were there, i was secretly looking at him =X she got married without any of us knowing. her parents have never ever seen him before, till today. lol! so cool right.. *dreams

it has always been my dream to marry a caucasian guy (i think 6 out of 10 girls will feel the same)
but have u realised that u will never meet ur standard kinda guy? the one u marry or get together with isnt usually ur dream guy. i guess its the feelings between a couple that matters the most (:

okay just posting afew pretty stuff =p

isnt this cute! toilet balloon bowl

can u believe someone can actually make this!? genius

vrooooom vroom

2005-02-10T02:58:00.000+08:00

today wasnt as bad as i thought it would be
BUT it was still bad =l

then again, when was CNY ever good? HAHA

with all those aunties saying the same thing. looking at u as if u were an alien;
saying obvious things.

"wah so tall already ah now.. last time still so small" (starts talking bout past)
like duhh?! dont they know that all humans grow older?

but i dont mind that actually. what i hate is being asked about my studies and what i wanna be in the future. because yaya.. i admit that im stupid and that my Os result is gonna suck ass but =/ its not really my fault for having a bird brain -.-

friendster is damn laggy.

ok that was so random. haha alright the only good thing bout today was the $ =)
i THINK its not bad lah. i havent open any of them but hehe i recieved some yst night already.
as in cash, not ang baos. cool huh =p

oh and one thing to say!! i slept on my bro's shoulders today!!!
the whole scenario was this:
- the car was abit cram
- i was damn tired
- so he like put his arms ard my shoulders and ask me to slp on him

SO AWWWW RIGHT?! quick tell me it is.
for a moment, he felt like my boyfriend.. lol!
but i really love my brother lah anyone close to me will know that big fat FACT.

I LOVE ARNOLD SIM <3
not forgetting my parents.. hugs!

btw anyone watched amazing race? the finale. that guy was soooo sweet! he proposed to his gf on national tv! its so god damn bloody hell sweet! he wanted to do it after they win the million bucks but too bad..
anyway i think love costs much MUCH more then money. agreed?

100% yes.

2005-02-08T16:48:00.000+08:00

I think im having gastric.
but u know what? i ate a damn filling longjohns meal just now and im not the LEAST BIT hungry.
-.- whats wrong with me aaaaah? ouch

went sch. finally saw my friends! miss them
but im tired, really am.
i hate going to school lah..
have to wake up at like 6-7am!? yuck
and i slept at 2 plus yst.. godness.

anyways, Happy Chinese New Year everyone! x)
*sprinkles blessings on everyone
very fast rightttt.. another long[?] year ahead.
mmm whats the first thing that comes to ur mind when u think of cny?
i know; MONEY right!?
ok i bet 7 outta 10 pple think of that!!
but actually im recieving lesser $ each year.. argh when will the economy please get better? hehe

talking about new year! guess what man..
i broke a freaking round mirror that day.
yesyes, 7 years of bad luck :(
but anyway i quickly said hua1 kai1 fu4 gui4 and sui4 sui4 ping2 an1 in chinese! ahahaha
my reaction was damn stupid. thank god i was home alone.. lol

gtg.. bukit panjang. how i miss my old house!
and im still very full. argh.
full with gastric, ever heard of that? hmm..

2005-02-04T13:27:00.000+08:00

all i can say is my com is really my good + faithful companion (:
this morning, my dad tried to switch on the com (cos my bro's one broke down) and yayness! finally can. and so my dad was freakin happy. then suddenly, the screen went blank with the *teee* sound! HAHAHAHA he havent even open one IE window. lol

and now im using my com!! mwuahaha

ahh obviously, im on off today again =p
i got alot of off man.. haha cool but off = less $ !!
but i had work yst and im still sick so i'd rather be off really.
surprisingly, yst's work was really good =D we re all getting quite close.
felt so slack-y like i didnt do much stuff yet the sales was as high as usual.. weird?

new year's coming!! i like new year! but i hate meeting my aunties and uncles
anyway i cant believe im 17 this year.
feels like im getting older n older like an ah ma. hahaha okay lah not that bad.

i wish my family had a car! easier to get ard.
u know whats amazing thing about having a car?
it brings a family together; thats what i think anyway. because when u have a car, u go places with ur family! like to have supper..etc
i miss those days! those cds in the cars.. we all sing together! HAHA
besides, i can ask my dad to fetch me after work also. lol! save me from all the walking.
u know how deep inside i live.. argh #$*%!@

wow my house has 10 colours. thats alot for a flat? lol and the fate is blue. weird righttt.. blue gate -.-
we were left with the blue paint.
but still, home sweet home.

and nothing beats that x)

2005-02-02T23:16:00.000+08:00

off day today and although im sick i still went town lah
how can i waste sucha good opportunity right?

today = darn good =D
abit tired from all the walking
went orchard, raffles city & bugis today!! godness haha
all for my mum! alter clothes from everywhere, make me collect.
but being so filial.. :) hehe ok i shall admit tt im the best kid around.

guess who approached me outside TANGS?
steven lim!! hahahaha is that his name? argh wdv but anyway, its that guy who made a fool of himself during e spore idol competition and stripped in that top fun show. lol he is damn sissified! hes trying to ask pple to do eyebrow shaping btw. please lah, like who dare to go near him right?! brainless =x

hais i feel like chopping off my nose. $^&$#*@
so painful after all the rubbing. mucus cant stop flowing down! and the stupid cough makes my throat bloody itchy.
to make things worst, im working tmr.. =/ till night somemore.
work is really boring, really really really. not that mine is esp boring. maybe im the kind of person who cant stick to smth for long.. fickle? whatever

i wanna watch son of the mask !
the last time i caught a movie was . . .
alright u get what i mean.

i need to get more sleep
but i got one show at 1130 so.. ha ha
im going now!

2005-02-02T13:01:00.000+08:00

im finally blogging again! haha
ok incase ure interested, reason why im not blogging is because ive been quite busy.
springcleaning like siao, getting sick and going to work!

working is so boring.....
when u study, u wish u were working. vice versaaaa when u work, u wish u were studying =/

tsk back to why i dont blog.. my com has gone kuku again and the internet explorer on my bro's com somehow just wouldnt cooperate with me. ahhh u know how much it sucks when ure surfing the net halfway and suddenly it jus get hang or closes!? yeah i think u do.. lol

my house now is as good as new! really clean everything (even the toilet pipes!)
and then i threw awy almost everything i can throw. hahaha
i love my new room, the colour i mean. damn bright and nice (:
ok.. i hope my mother srtike 4d or smth ! heh since the house is sosososo clean now;
may all good things arriveee

i hope i get well soon if not i will miss all the good food during CNY =p
im quite finished with my CNY shopping. this year is the most saved cny shopping ever! hehe
i havent got anything red at all. hmm maybe i can get a red bra or undie =p lol!
the feeling of CNY rock! $$$

alrighttttt i have a very busy schedule today! hahaha btw those very cute faces below are the navigation ard my blog (incase u dont know)
so, byeeee

2005-01-29T11:37:00.000+08:00

i am stuck with my com!
and thank god miss computer is willing to work well for me today (:
rmb i say its been down? yeah it got better today.. heh. see, my com is faithful to me.. mwuaha

ok the reason why im stuck here is because the living room tv got unplugged and everything is in a mess. den my bro's room tv somehow has some smell if u switch it on (like can explode anytime)
and my mum's room tv got no scv cos my bro took it to his tv that time. so why bother watching right? lol

i know, pathetic.

the painters have been here since a glorious 8AM disturbing my beauty sleep
and guess what theyve completed painting?
THE CEILINGS. VERY FAST AHHH? ahaha okay lah i not so mean.. i know its hard work.
oh n my friends should know tt i love green right? haha guess what again? my living room is turning greeeen! wheeee =D different shades of green somemore. thats the best part about being the youngest in the house; having things ur way. lol

haisssss everytime i start working i get sick.
must be that ZHU made me so angry.. im gonna see her today!
im suppose to be on off today lor.. she go change without asking me.
shithead, i cant stand her !!! god bless me

i dont see myself with this job for long.
and try smelling paint while ure sick.. =S

2005-01-28T01:48:00.000+08:00

surprising, i felt good shopping today!!
shopping is different when u have the mood.. least it made me forget about that asshole zhu =p

or maybe its because i shopped with my mum? (:
even had a very super satisfying dinner at crystal jade. yum. im eating more den her! my god

smth funny happened at isetan today! hahahaha
it was so coincidental?!
sab called me and i met her (go to her blog for details) anyways, finally get to see that girl =D
oh and my mum called my aunt and we met my aunt too!!
the amazing things fate does.. aha

i love my mum. okay that was so random.
lol but in case ure thinking that i love her just because she bought me stuff..
the answer is a strong NO please.
i love her for being who she is.. for lovin me more then i love her.
and the fact is that i didnt buy much; only 2 tops and a jeans (which i need for work)
hehe im happy with it alr

and im gonna turn my room orange !
wheeee finally!!
purple is getting boring.. and i cant believe my room was once pink =X
its so.. barbie? ahha nvm! that was once upon a time

argh brother's home.. goodbye
have i mention tt my com is bonkers again?
ok its crazy. i hate it

2005-01-26T23:24:00.000+08:00

SHUT THE HELL UP ZHU,

THANKS A LOAD U ASS

and this whole entry is a special all-about-u entry, u moron. this is like the first time in i-dont-know how long that ive felt so much hatred against a person.
seriously.. FUCK HER (pardon my swearings pls)

she ought to be proud tt shes the one & only person thats officially on my hate list. first in rank somemore. assholemoronshithead *insert more swearings*
i was and still AM so pissed with her.. like SOSOOOOOOOOO pissed.

obviously something happened again.. this time it was so bad it got really really bad.

omg its actually so bad that i can feel myself getting hot physically u know? i get fiery whenever i think of it now.
u must be thinking why the heck i hate her so much, well simply because :
1) shes unreasonable
2) she ask pple to do smth but she herself dont even do it (hello action speak louder than words? oh i forgot her english suck lah)
3) shes biased
4) i just hate her so much
5) shes a bloody shithead who doesnt wanna admit that she can be wrong

the sight of her face makes me _____
i dont even know what words to use to describe the anger and hatred im feeling now #$@$T^#$%

thank god im not gonna see her for 2 days.

I HOPE SHE CAN GET OUT OF MY SIGHT SINCE SHE SAYS WORK ENDS VERY LATE.
PLEASE LAH 10 + VERY LATE ISIT
im not gonna get nastier . . .

2005-01-25T13:29:00.000+08:00

it's been a hard day's night
and i've been working like a dog
it's been a hard day's night
i should be sleeping like a log

but when I get home to you
i find the things that you do
will make me feel all right

exactly! its been so many hard day's night !
and i dont have anyone special to make me feel alright? lol its gonna be a hard day's night again today! gosh
have i mention that i particularly hate my 'head' in the shop. lets nickname her ZHU !
okay u see, i was late for 5 or 10 mins and she nagged at me
i dont mind that becos its my fault that im late but WTF shes always late can?!
shitty asshole! i cant stand pple she contradicts themself. i just feel like giving her one tight slap. and smth else happened too but its a long story.
she just suck, period.

ohwell, work has been so routined.. i hate routined stuff. (u know how boring it gets)
ive been doing the EXACT same thing everyday? yawns i feel like ive lost touch with the world! serious. i havent seen any of my friends except afew which i happen to see near my workplace
but i was finally off yst =) so i went shopping alone (yah pathetic huh)
but i met up with angie for lunch at sakae (: nth much lah cos she had to work at night.. grrr hahaha
btw i went home empty handed! ahaha see! i said i lost my shopaholic mood..
shopping just sucks now. really horrible. all the clothes are so boring/ugly =l

i need a pair of jeans badly!!
shit i better not be late for work.. damn that ZHU

2005-01-22T13:39:00.000+08:00

i think i can be placed next to a pile of poo and NOT feel weird =l
why is it that everyone seem to have a course (or poly) in mind that they wanna go to?
seriously, i dont even know what course i wanna get into! everything seems so boring.
im hopelessly hopeless lahh

work later. workworkworkwork
everyday work.. i havent even really shop for new year yet!
i need to shop. but all the good clothes gone.. sob
but nvm at least ive got $$ =D yays

i think i am going to be late again
aiyah im the late queen (proud to be one lol!)

gone are the good times we shared

2005-01-20T01:24:00.000+08:00

can i just curse blogger? BLOODY HELL
i blogged and this stupid blogger just had to ruin it ! #$%@*
im quite sure it wasnt my com becos other websites were doing fine..
yawns nvm i ll reblog since im so bored but am too lazy to bathe.

2 days of work seemed like forever ?! but im kinda loving it for now and i hope this love lasts =p
a few other 16 yr old girls working with me.. friendly chicks <3>utterly disgraced to say BG =/ lousy shit lol
bah working there is a little like Mango.. just that its a much smaller shop and there re more foldings than hangings to do! u know how much folding sucks.. we even need to follow this 'board' for the width of the clothes. yes, im serious! the big boss suck and NOBODY likes him (but he haven treat me bad yet)
all the clothes are sooooo damn x 100 cute!!! there are tubes, spag n racer back tops and etc lah
really super cute.. the smaller the sizes, the cuter it gets! haha if only i had a kid.

i wanna get married! give birth to a cute lil baby GIRL. im not bias but girls are usually more well behaved and sweet. i said usually.
and besides, girls have gt more varieties of cutie clothes =D i cant wait to dress my child up; prettypretty. hehe
ok i know all these will soon become a chore! but i still want someone who can accompany me to my grave lol

"only twice in ur life do they pronounce u smth. the first is man and wife, the second is dead."
i cant wait for my first but i sure hope my second comes as late as possible (:

time to bathe, catch my show and go to bed!
another day at work tmr. think happy and u ll feel happy :))
[highlight all + ctrl C *winks]

2005-01-17T17:11:00.000+08:00

its been cooling all afternoon. superb x)

alrighto! i got a job. but there are alot of BUTS in my head.
i dont know. its quite confusing.. nah i really have no idea what im saying lol
just hoping that it wont be too bad

my brother got the Xda lls. tsk expensive
no we re not rich lah. he bought it with his super hard earned pay!
thats good because hes not spending money like any-o-how. pay with what u earned! i should learn to do that man (my bro is my role model =p).. haha but im not really a $ spender right ! ya so its not so bad. i just need money for some things i wanna DO. anyway xda is cool! abit big but still cool! not suitable for me though..

CNY shopping sucks now lah; no money, no talk.
and besides, everything so sian already. everywhere selling the same kinda thing.
all those nicey stuff cost like shit *blabberblabber

sometimes i think buying expensive clothes is really (and i mean REALLY) not worth it at all?
but maybe its o-k to buy smth expensive as a gift to urself occasionally.. but some pple really =/
i think its silly? ure only like paying for what?!
bingo - the brand
take fcuk for example: just four simple letters. a shirt with one pathetic sentence on it cost $50.. seriously, whats the point huh? i admit i envy those who can afford. but i dont think its worth it? spend it on food or smth u need lahh. besides, pple like us grow so fast.. before u know it - u cant even fit into ur bloody shirt or wdv.

btw, i was referring to pple who arent too rich.
rich pple can spend all they want.
they DONT NEED to care. (:
actually i do own some expensive clothes like levis jeans (1 pathetic piece) cause my superloveable&nice mum allows me to buy anything i want! but sometimes it just hurts to spend wdv she earned awy right? okay u get what i mean..

2005-01-16T13:07:00.000+08:00

can anybody tell me WHY my blogger is in chinese!?!?
i donnt know what the heck i did.. lol anybody knows how to change it back?

2005-01-16T01:42:00.000+08:00

i dont want to be anything

other than what ive been trying to be lately

all i have to do is think of me

and i have peace of mind

im tired of looking round rooms

wondering what i gotta do

or who im supposed to be

i dont want to be anything other than me

2005-01-16T01:40:00.000+08:00

yawns.. im feeling tired already.
now thats early.

i lost my shopaholic mood (or wdv its called) ever since i came back from aussie
its like.. shopping = wasting energy walking ard.
seriously, the only things i bought so far were err.. 2 books ?! pple who know me will know that i hardly ever buy books! waste of money. i guess i just wanna have smth to do?
hmm perhaps the reasons for me not shopping is im broke and shopping over here is nothing compared to over there!
aww damnit i miss aussie again. yayaya.. im repeating myself again but so what? im gonna say it again. I MISS AUSSIE x 10000

ironically, im going shopping tmr =l

arghh im so pissed with JOBS. no im not angry that im jobless. its just the.. WHOLE thing. $%#^* i dont really know what exactly but im just in the tohellwithyou mood. if i dont really need $, i wont even think of working! i dont mind spending boring afternoons at home really.
f*** i wish i was in a jc now. blame it on my brains.
and i dont really fancy going to poly but im 90% sure im getting into one.. bleah
if only i could get out of here with my cousie.. so sad lah! :(

suddenly everything hits me, so clearly.

2005-01-13T13:52:00.000+08:00

finally, lynnie on the blog!! ha ha
ok ive got so much shit to blog.

am i a pessimistic person? thats what jonathan thinks i am. he even said alot bout me. (not ALOT but good enough)
hes abit psychic.. lol he can tell how a person is like just by talking to him/her !
and its seriously real because wdv he said bout me was right.. despite the fact that we re always only joking around or crapping. i really like him lahhh x)

I NEED A JOB BADLY. thinking back.. i wonder why did i even quit at mango?!
i could have continue.. so WHAT THE HELL was i thinking man!?!?! %#$&% the regrets u make in life. haha its so bloody hard to get a part time job now and im quitting =l must have been out of my mind.
the stupid fcuk just wont call.. i hope they call tmr. or really fcuk fcuk! get the joke? ha ha

had a good chat with my cousie yst night
yesyes coffee club-ed again.. i really cant think of a better 24hrs service cafe around town
as usual we were the youngest there.. but who cares =p i think we stayed the longest.
heh she was actually the one that told me what jonathan said bout me. he asked her whether i am ____ (wdv he thought i am) duhhh.. its difficult to tell someone in the face how u think of that person, right? awkward - is the right word to use.

argh im gonna miss my cousie when she leaves for aussie! ok the fact is that im jealous can?
lyn is super jealous!! but i will really miss her too. hehe i miss aussie. hais.. here i go again. STOP

ahhhh hahaah guess what pple! ive been reading a chinese book. yes CHINESE
omg even I cant believe it. o-kay, so i skip at least 2 words every sentence but so what! i still get the whole storyline alright. Lol interesting. and i bought a book yst; man and wife. just to cure boredom but i hope it wont come in handy because i really (x1000) want a job now? reaaally.

i need the money for far too many things! adding on the adidas jacket that i saw yst.. sigh (okay thats not a need but the rest really are) ive never realised the imptance of $ because im not really a spender. but as i grow, i spend + need more money so;

BOOM, it hits me.
hello reality?

just bless that i ll get a job soon.
or can someone get me that adidas jacket? juskidding.. not like anyone would. (:

2005-01-09T05:56:00.000+08:00

WOW its 6 am.. told u im turning nocturnal ! lol

i had alot of fun today! meet the fockers is damn funny!! hahahaha ok i know im abit lag.. but
SO WHAT? fock you! ive been fockerisedddd =p jus kidding. ha ha
and the baby is sooooo cute! ass-hooooooo

i dont understand why im having a hard time blogging! ahhaaha my memory is failing me. all i can rmb is
- fatty swensens
- cute jap guy!!
- funny movie with illegal food! HAAHA
- pretty stroll
- mongolia guys who look jap
- coffee club with not enough money =D
- disgusting toilets
- cab homeeeee

so fun right! ya i know hahahaha
abit high today =p

btw, good morning. but im going to sleep now! hehe

2005-01-07T22:31:00.000+08:00

let the rain fall down

and wake my dreams

let it wash away my sanity

cause i wanna feel the thunder

i wanna scream

i realised alot of my entries are sent at like around 2am? that means im turning nocturnal! and thats a bad thing but hmm the night sky kinda gives me a funny feeling =l esp if im alone somewhere!
is that a fact or am i just weird ?
i think its just me. haha

if u dont do it, dont expect someone else to do it

2005-01-07T13:56:00.000+08:00

i want my levis !! should i anot, angie ?
omg any sponsors? =D

2005-01-07T01:33:00.000+08:00

so im back from outerspace (:
i really am in a daze these days. besides going job-hunting.. im still waiting for very unhopeful calls. grhh >:l eat. sleep. tv. dream. computer. read. town and baaaah doing my usual thang lah! life's pretty much routined here.

i know i know, all those pple who re schooling are complaining that JC life sucks *blabber blabber
but PLS FEEL LUCKY THAT UVE GOT SMTH TO DO CAN !!? why? because ;
1) u get to make/meet new friends (BGR?)
2) ure not stuck with doing the same things again (whether its going out or staying home)
3) ure experiencing a new kinda life
4) u have got the brains! (ok i wish i was in one now.)

sigh the irony in life..

i dont know what the heck i want in mine. i keep thinking Spore is so damn boring BUT i know tt Spore is a darn good country? its safe in terms of terrorism, compared to anywhere else. or at least from any natural disasters!! but if i had a choice i think i will really get out of here.. not permanently though! some 1-2 years period will be good. i think? dont get it wrong, i still love Singapore!

i saw on news that some fortune teller from i forgot which country predicted that there is more to come in yr 2005. more = natural disasters =/ all that is left to say is ;

May God Bless Us <3

yeee im weird. i wish im at coffee club right now! NOW!! sipping on my ice mocha vanilla n having my sweetsweet girl talk. its best to talk at night ; the feeling's just right. peaceful + beautiful sky with a touch of the moon x) i wishhh..

ah back to reality. actually my life really isnt THAT bad lah. sometimes i tend to overlook things. haha goodnighties

2005-01-04T01:48:00.000+08:00

i actually had 3 sweetdreams yesterday night and im over the moon! haha
we actually chatted a lil in the dream.. aww how sweet. im missing it!

anyway i hope that person call! just call lah PLEASE! god bless us =)
and i hope that person call too. bwahaha but there is like less den 10% chance of tt happening ?

SO SAD LAH.. i feel so arghy now!
actually ive got quite a load of crap to say but im just not in the mood to.

2005-01-02T03:25:00.000+08:00

okay so im still sore bout what happened and im trying to get over it

so thank god today wasnt a bad day
out to one of my oldold tourmate house.. met up with lotsa pple
and my aussie guide went too! hahaha i really missed him ! no, hes not young but not old. hes very funny yet smart and faithful. (sounds like a poem haha!) awwww? hee his girl is sooo pretty. shes a mixed eurasian.. so u can imagine her face urself lol

caught phantom of the opera. its good if ure into plays, the songs are damn nice..
some parts abit sad
girl talked with my beloved cousie at our usual coffee club. yeahhh it was sweet x) i love the ice mocha vanilla there! haha fat.. aussie made me fatter but i wont mind living there =p

sigh anyway i forgot to wish everyone a happy sweet and new 2005 !
before u know it, 2006 will be right at ur doorstep.

night time sharpens, heightens each sensation
darkness stirs and wakes imagination
silently the senses abandon their defences

softly, deftly, music shall surround you
feel it, hear it, closing in around you
open up your mind
let your fantasies unwind
in this darkness which you know you cannot fight
the darkness of the music of the night

let your mind start a journey through a strange, new world
leave all thoughts of the world you knew before
let your soul take you where you want to be
only then can u belong to me

you alone can make my song take flight
help me make the music of the night

2005-01-01T13:09:00.000+08:00

OH MY GOD

IM GOING TO KILL MYSELF !!!

he walked in mango at 6! arghh $%#%^* why why why the heck must my dinner be at 6 !?!?!
shits.. nooooo i knew it. i seriously sensed it okay ? damndamndamnnnn

sigh the things fate does.. DAMNIT LAH
i am damn sad now.

2004-12-31T22:43:00.000+08:00

2005 will be arriving in less den 2 hrs time
but my nose is killing me.. argh what a good start to a new year? getting sick.
haha but! i think its a blessing in disguise cos i got to skip work today! but i didnt get an mc either cos the doctors were i guess, busy preparing to celebrate! (closed) i dono what im gonna do but i dont really care cos anyway the job is ending.. mwuhaha yahoo! in fact im hoping it stopped already.

hehe i absolutely <3>A minute of silence for those who died please. theyre so innocent.

okok away with the sad stuff. looking back on 2004; its been a long ride with everything running like a cheetah man! olevels and all.. bloody hectic but im glad we all got over it ! all the sad and happy moments are gone. i still miss everything from my aussie trip.. its that bad. u wont know
=( sigh theres only more rocky roads to come..yawns and i feel its amazing how much a person can change.

ive got quite a number of new yrs resolutions =p but im gonna keep it a secret. hee anyway its not like anyone whos reading this cares..... =/ i think i blog for myself.

but im fine with that (: goodnight.

2004-12-29T23:31:00.000+08:00

now i know the luxury of sitting down. hahaha one typcial singlish word; shiok ah!

my colleagues are quite nice lah
hehe some look so quiet, some look so cold but theyre all actually quite nice + funny! oh ya n did i mention that mango plays the same music like 100 times?! repeat until even I know how to sing. lol please, its only my 3rd day at work! it can get quite irritating though. yawns lah.. we re all dying ! during work its like :
- super slpy
- super tiring (only 1 break)
- feet super pain (cannot sit and rest)
- super hungry
- super annoying
- super hot
- super long (for work to end)
- super crowded
oh god everything's SUPER! lastly, please try adding everything together at once and experience it baby! night shift is the worst.. nobody knows tt we have to pack up til 12+ am!

bah anyways i uploaded some pics alr
the fly one is inside too >
http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2133276533

im still so aussie sick :( its really very bad. i said VERY.
i nv expected this man

my throat is killing me! help

2004-12-28T01:21:00.000+08:00

thats it !! i freaking hate being in mango now. its so boring........... u can die folding/hanging the clothes
and why cant those pple put the clothes back NICELY. like shit you! hello pple folding like siao yet there u are purposely throwing infront of me. shit you assholes! slaps 1000 times*

so for gods (and any salesgirls) sake, those who goes shopping PLEASE have the decency to put the clothes back man. need not be perfect but at least TRY !? thank you

hahaha okay i sounded so serious. its not that bad but yeah its bad. ultra tiring, feets hurt
argh enough of bitching. sorry peeps! anyways i gtgggg i hate my com la.. sucks all my photos inside! damnit

I AM VERY AUSSIE SICK boohoohoo

why am i thinkingggg
ure an addiction !!

2004-12-26T01:56:00.000+08:00

my com REALLY crashed !! noooo damnit.. i knew it. i expected it. i sensed it, really! had this feeling in aussie.. haha maybe i can predict the future =D hey thats not a bad thing right ?

whee it was fun alright. the whole trip :)) if only i could travel round the world *dreams
next time go backpacking yays!

anyways, to summerise :
-new friends; great pple
-ultra nice tour guide; i like him. lol he bought me a xmas pressie awww.. trust me hes damn sweet.
-extraordinary pretty beaches
-HUGE surfshops of all nice brands (ripcurl roxy billabong rusty volcom blahblah)
-great sceneries
-fun movie world
-basically a fly-ry place (which can really make ur blood boil) ive got a pic of someone! hahaha upload laters or smth
-friendly & well mannered australians
-celebrated cousin's bday on the plane! thats so bloody cool ?! they announced over the system and the crews actually walked out with the cake! haha nice peeps
- etc haha lazy

god i love aussie! im missing it! im gonna move there. oh yes i am. hahaha im dreaming again..
hrmm, maybe i can marry someone rich! hahaahhah righttttt time to bathe! seeyah later =p

merry belated xmas everyone!

2004-12-19T19:40:00.000+08:00

wheee my cousie and i are actually trying their $2 hi speed internet thingie here.. hahaha yes they spelled as hi. anyways the time here is like 940? ya smth sort of.. 2 hrs faster.

and the weather sucks as much as spore but its more windy so yay. hahaha yawns damn tired now.. only day 1 god bless us! (: OH YA and there are alot of eye candies here in aussie! ahahahahah really alot. like today my cousin and i saw this VERYVERY cute japanese (or mixed) porter! hahahaaha damn funny and the pple here jus walk ard bare footed or half naked. cool? hehehe the girls wearr bikinis of course.

OK GTG BYE!!

2004-12-17T23:14:00.000+08:00

BIG FAT HELLO WELLO

to anyone whos reading this. thanks for holding on to my blabberings often =p
as u can see im very in the mood today (:

okayyy so my dads foot is alrighto alr. thanks to all who blessed =p but it sure was freaky & im like that kind tt wanna act calm in shitty situations. so yah! lol its all acting lah! i realise im starting (or all along?) to sound very singlish.. (angie must be the singlish bk !) hrmm but i should to be proud tt im a 100% pure sporean what right ! no, should be HOR?! aahaaha

woah i think i went to the loo abt 6 times today.. bladder problem!

oh ya did i mention that i finally caught dawn of the dead yst! on my com.. ive been wanting to catch that flick. but trust me, dont ever d/l any movies online. (how contradicting? i have like 5 movies in my com now! haha but hey u cant blame me. typical sporean goes for 'cheapcheap thang =p)
the quality SUCKS BIG TIME !! u cant really hear dem speak plus with e backgrd music blasting awy.. grh !! zzz i got hold of the whole storyline anyhows. hehe worse den i expected but not bad still.. zombies are scary. imagine if they really exist? sheesh

im trying to type alot.. kills boredom. oh i like elvis presley's jailhouse rock. yes! maia sang this song before.. its nice go download (and risk getting jailed) lol! bwah i guess pretty random today? collin, i feel like u now hahaha

argh kinda hungry. beard papa rocks! those cream puffs are heavenly! yum im lovin` it
wow its 1157 now.. i cant believe i took 45mins to crap! loll must be all the pauses from msn. okay la save ur torture, byes!

2004-12-16T13:13:00.000+08:00

OH MY FUCK. the knife drop on my fathers foot !!!
SHIT. he says he fell straight down and can u imagine how fucking pain it is ?!!??

.............. scary.

i dont dare to see. #%#$^$e*& damnit.. must be damn pain =(

2004-12-14T17:07:00.000+08:00

my dad broke his glasses while changing the bedsheets. big deal u must be thinking ?
welllll it reminded me of smth.. and im telling u tt its definately not a gd thing. all i can say is i love my dad aka the 'funny dad' im proud of it LOL!

aaaah now im jus slacking at home everyday! planning to do this like forever.
haha no lah, it sucks to be at home and im sure everyone noes exactly, how much it sucks right ?!!?
bet so. boredom ah.. kills.
but a very BIG THANKYOU to my sweet angie for all those 8 days mags ! (that girl actually went throught the trouble of carrying it to town and blah! its damn heavy) thanks lah muack =p
and of cos to sabbie for 'her world' mag ! damn thick (700 pages) i haven even got through half of it !! lol

plus ive got my cleo, my mp3s, my rollar coaster tycoon (but it gets boring) and last but not least, my room is always available for me to pack ! haahhaa forever lazy.
i guess staying home doesnt suck so much if ure not really feeling on the shit side. (:

btw i love the song on my blog! angie + sab sure got very sick of me singing HAHA
same old sentence somemore. rofl !

i will survive

2004-12-11T22:59:00.000+08:00

alrighto quick, tell me that the guy on my new skin is HOT ! i mean his body.
actually cant really see lah ah? hahaha but wdv because i took so hell long to find a good pic so u'd better tell me its nice. thank you x)

yays! am going out tmr i think! pls lahhh.. im dying at home. needa buy some stuff like ; boardshorts, black heels, pants & top, earphone, err the list goes on..
fine so its not some. its alot. grhh.. $_$ why do money exist in this world ?!
but den again no money, no world. so forget it lol -.-

dont let ur fantasies run too far
because when that happens, u feel down.

btw sab, goodluck for ur filming (: whee shower shower. HAHA relax, chill and have plain fun.

2004-12-09T15:48:00.000+08:00

its another bright[?] day again!
haha time flies if u look back but if u look forward its damn slow lah ?

ahhh anyway angie !! i had a damn sweet dream too.. *dreams again
but nooooo it will NEVER come true, 100% comfirmed :( our dreams never ever EVER come true one uh? haahah sucker. nvm 'work for it' bwhahah (tell me what u dreamt bout!)
and i heard dreams are always the opposite to real life. i hope that isnt true.. pls ? *crosses fingers

here goes a survey for the living dead - pple like me, bored till they died ahhaha

what comes to ur mind when u see the word..

friend => beloved TEN
school => boring bgss
coffee => bean!
vanilla =>my fave icecream
yellow => yellow dirty fellow ! hehe
pink => all the pink collar shirts 'ahbeng' wear
josh hartnett => CUTE! and pearl harbour.. gd show.
popcorn => movies
liar => pants on fire!
moon => fly me to the moon! haha the song
memories => lock (err does it link? haha)
sushi => sakae sushi! munch*
sorry => RAHIM. hahahahaaha
enemy =>behind enemy lines.. that movie..nice!
first love => sweet? and utada hikaru's song, very nice!
dog => prince (jacs dog)
country => currently aussie ! wheeeee hehe
love => hearts
camera => olympus lol and the movie, shutter.
WWE => err my father
lousy => singlish! heh
bed => 'shiok ah' lol
lotr => the ring ?
aloha => hawaii
holiday => ausssie
movie=> alot eh
chocolate => icecream which i dont like.. haha
butt => butt-ock
shoes => heels
music => spore idol
green => my fav colour recently
balls => testis lol =X (im a bio student)
rock => and roll
life => routined
Harry Potter => SABBIE ! her fav..
hurt => painful
friends => love hearts hugs
Christmas => ausssieeeee aha

i realised my blog is damn full of black words.. lol like overcrowded ?

2004-12-06T04:20:00.000+08:00

yawns two comical movies in a day..
didnt brighten my day though. its still boring.. living like tmrs the same thing
god save meeee
but bridget jones is quite funny anyway haha

oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight
lead me out on the moonlit floor
lift your open hand
strike up the band and make the fireflies dance
silver moon's sparkling, so kiss me

my fantasy indulgence, again.

i think maybe im suffering from insomnia now, Q! oh god it must be u.. ur disease. horrible. im dying from my thoughtttts and i really hate this =(

2004-12-02T01:18:00.000+08:00

drank vodka with the girls today! rightt..
so much for the vodka. ahahahh

TAUFIK WON !! hmm actually the whole thing seems like nth or rather it felt like nth. its jus like.. everything jus ends like that ;
like for sly, he worked so hard but everything jus sort of 'crashes down' in a sec ? and even if taufik won, its like sgps eng pop singers can NEVER make it far lor =/
SMTH LIKE THAT LAH. %!#&$* argh i dont really know what im saying.. hehe plus i dono how to explain this weird feeling inside of me.

maybe im jus a big weirdo lol

yawns im really tired and god knows why !?
maybe its all the walking.. so many 'maybes' today. haha alrighto goodnight. cant take no more

wait! did i mention bout my bro?
hes so funny cute & so sweeet! (just like his sister. heh of course! lol)
what can i say? i love him <333 he rockrockROCK more den bonjovi or aerosmith or whatever, i dont care.

okays zZzzz..

2004-11-30T02:30:00.000+08:00

im back. ok so i wasnt awy.. jus like theres practically nth to blog about ? pathetic

no life.

i just drank the world best soup made by my mum (yes at this time. slurp!)
haha plus im munching on m&ms now. no not now, its been the whole day
FATNESS ahhah dont blame me, im a girl and thats a girl thing.
alright i wont nag on anymore

omg what to blog about ?! the holidays have been pretty blank for me
empty ? yes thats the word! been having late morning + nights. meaning i slp late and wake up late lol
im really wishing for alot of things now. right at this damned moment.

indulging in fantasies. i need something.

yeee how i wish i can live overseas n get out of small limited compacted Spore!
blahblahblah haha tired but cant and dont feel like slping *&#!!@
seems like everyones havin wild fun
errr maybe i ll just go tycoon-ing with my rollar coasters.
HAH byeee

i want something else
to get me through this semi-charmed kind of life

2004-11-27T02:02:00.000+08:00

its my rotting day today.

cherry tomatos = yumyum

2004-11-25T23:31:00.000+08:00

eyyy shutter is nice. quite scary.. haven catch a proper horror flick for super uber long! haha neck pain now! no lah lol jk
ive been going out everyday. sigh kinda boring alr.. this sucks.
i wanted this so much and now its like aaah i dono what i want man
damnit my lifes boring uninteresting un-fun

real thanks daryl

i found myself today
oh, i found myself and ran away
something pulled me back a voice of reason, i forgot i had
all i know is your not here to say

2004-11-25T13:36:00.000+08:00

towned yst until my heels hurt like siao
sab and i walked for 6 hrs or more none stop! omg and we met this weird man. suddenly talk to us den blahblahblah and he even gave us his number, asking us to contact him if we wanna go clubbing at Chinablack or anywhere. BWAHHAHAH thinking back its quite funny !?
and we caught saw ! finallyyy hehe =p its NICE. i like it i like it i like it ! that adam guy is funny lol

hrmm shutter today =)) oh shit that means town again
maan ive been towning the whole week.. lol boring
anyways i hope i wont get too paranoid after watching shutter haahah
okay i better go get ready now since im the late queen hehehe
my cousin complaining alr ! zzz

2004-11-24T01:16:00.000+08:00

had a good night with TEN =D
billy bomber-ed until like DAMN full. basket, all fats! hahahaha lets see.. chicken, lambchop (omg i spelled as lamP lol), hotdog, egg, fries, salad, ice tea, pathetic (so not) cheese cake.
lol ! but we never finish all lah.. so full. sab was like, can i burst now? hhahahaah that girl..

bwhahaha neoprints were damn fun! ok so theyre abit like for ahbengs and ahlians but who cares? lol i think we were like the loudest over there.. squeeeeezing and screaming. jac loves his pic.. err sab's one nice also (inside joke) HAHHAAHAAHA super hilarious. oops, dont blame me! collin laughed the most!

starbuck-ed till like 11 plus!? wheee fun talk, nice drinks, but no eye candies hehe
im starting to feel alive againnn x))))

2004-11-23T16:36:00.000+08:00

ITS OVER! ITS ALL OVER. OLEVELS OVER !!! omg can i scream ?!!?
do u know how great it feels to get over this shit that everyone has to get over with?
its damn good i tell you ! ahhh but actually, now that its over.
i sense the sianess of doing nth everyday.. hahahaha okay so contradicting.

lets see. im gonna pack my room, throw my books, go out, go out, go out, work
and the list goes on and on and on.. boring? =/ after awhile i guess
hehe but i got manymany things to look forward to anyways :)
going out now. byeeee

im a millionaire wannabe!

2004-11-20T20:36:00.000+08:00

i wanna catch saw ! actually i have no idea what its about at all
hahaha but it seems nice and its nc-16! so it should be gross or smth..
i wanna catch shutter too but i think errr.. scary ? haha

aaahh, i hope i can finish studying my bio and i hope it ll be easy. (duh lol)
after the whole Os thing im gonna have so much fun!
SO many stuff lined up ((= whoooo quickquickquick

tuesday will come and go like cheetah right ?

2004-11-17T02:00:00.000+08:00

oh yeeeah hitler, nazi germany came out!
thank god man seriously. if not i really dont know how?
hahha but actually cold war came out too.
so for the first time i have like 2 choices to choose from! but i choose hitler anyway hehe
so happy, but source based qns kinda suck so err.. i dono bout it. lol

may luck be on my side

argh i need to prepare for my poa and amaths
accounts of clubs and societies aint that bad anymore.
lol spent so damn long discussing it with az + jas
and im SO satisfied with what we erm achieved? (dono what word to fit in) heheeh
bah anyways im so excited! its all gonna be over soon..
veryvery soon omggg =DD
its gonna be a long holiday man. with nothing but relaxation.
haven had a holiday without HW since p6! hah
whooo im waiting

goodnight peeps

2004-11-15T02:02:00.000+08:00

yawns.. poa fagged me out =/

i started on it and all i can say is :

accounts of clubs and societies suck! (so it deserves an ugly colour.)

argh actually alot of chapters suck ? how man?

i mean seriously, i dont wanna do badly.

but time is running out.. no time to study. my amaths alr gone to hell sigh

for history, please jus let hitler come out alone

better not come out in themes man!! if not i ll die badly :(

i never liked studying.. torturous.

2004-11-12T22:37:00.000+08:00

i studied so little today! die die die!
but at least i started on amaths =p

argh.. but anyway two swedish guy came today!
theyre doing some survey in spore for their product
hahaha theyre cute =x hehe i think my mum thinks so too lol!
theyre damn humourous hahaha and they disturb me!
about my studies and all and cos i was watching the champions
he ask me whether the seagulls coach cute man!
EWWW can u believe it ahhaahahaha
i said no, got babes. den he saw and he was like wah so many!
ahahhaah den my mum talk alot of crap
they cleaned my bed for me using their product
my bed is bloody dirty, filled with dustmites!!
you wont believe it till u see it =/

ahhh im on cloud nine lol

waiting for my show at 1130. so long..
i should be studying now but argh no mood
i think everyones alr in the holiday mood !

2004-11-12T14:06:00.000+08:00

its good to be rich man !
not good, its important.

if u think ur life sucks, think again

everybody always gave you what you wanted
you never had to work it was always there
you dont know what its like..

2004-11-09T13:50:00.000+08:00

eew the spore idols are gonna sing ASIAN POP SONGS this week right?
so disgusting to hear them sing chinese lol
hearing dem speak on the ad is alr like so -dot-
imagine them singing.. hrmm hahahaaha

better start on my history now
stupid cambridge purposely put poa p2 and amaths p2 together
damn it, WHAT TO DO WITH MY POINTS !!! so high

and i hate being compared with other pple ;
my mum's favourite hobby
im born without brains can anot. i stupid cannot isit ?
as if i like to get low marks. as if i like to fail. as if i like being stupid. AS IF I CARE ABOUT WHAT OTHERS GET ?!!?!?

2004-11-07T19:37:00.000+08:00

i think you re just plain selfish

2004-11-07T14:34:00.000+08:00

caught toy story on disney chnl jus now!
lol its damn funny cute and nice, really!
i still like it after watching it for SO many times =p
hehe if only we were toys ? no sch! hmm

emaths p2 tmr.. i hope its gonna be alright. no high hopes though..
im worried about my poa
flunked my amaths so what do u expect? i need to score in poa
at least a b4 PLS. but quite difficult lah.. mission impossible.

i feel so bad telling my family that my os are OKAY
when in actual fact, i really dont know? damn this shit
how !! bad results. big disappointment. feel stupid. lousy sch, bad course.

os suck, period. it shouldnt even be use to determine our intelligence level.

argh anyway i was talking to my beloved bro online
haha he wants to get this phone
yah, abit ambitious lah ahahha
its not even out in spore yet AND it costs a bomb man! BOOM
oh well ;
money is the root of all evil !!
ahwhaahah okay off topic =l

2004-11-05T14:44:00.000+08:00

jac showed daryl n i this =/
JUST LOOK AT THOSE BLOODY POINTS.
all the jcs cut off points got lower.
even meridian is 13 ! stupid shit
anyway i think im going poly LOL but its just sad aint it ?

S/NO	Junior College	Arts (Cut-Off Point)	Science (Cut-Off Point)
1	Anderson JC	10	9
2	Anglo-Chinese JC	10	10
3	Catholic JC	16	15
4	Hwa Chong JC	5	4
5	Jurong JC	16	14
6	Meridian JC	15	13
7	Nanyang JC	14	11
8	National JC	7	6
9	Pioneer JC	19	17
10	Raffles JC	6	5
11	Serangoon JC	20	19
12	St. Andrew JC	11	9
13	Tampines JC	15	14
14	Temasek JC	8	8
15	Victoria JC	7	6
16	Yishun JC	20	20

2004-11-03T21:31:00.000+08:00

right so switzerland came out !! so happy hahaha
i really wanted to YAY when i saw the qns on the paper lol!
but the paper wasnt too good for me still :(

sighs english compo and physics pretty much screwed up too
im so stupid. and tmrs maths hrmm..
god please bless me! i hope i can like do well
but err my maths is bad. amaths esp =/
hais gotta chiong for maths later.. i dono what i dono !!
gd thing the olevels seem to be passing so fast
hehe can party soon! whoooooooo
looking forward baby

btw i hate the YILIN in the 9 o`clock show on chnl 8!
what a bitch, i really wanna slap her real hard
how can she do that to her fren ?!!? her best friend somemore

heartless creature.

im glad i dont have friends like her. hehehe

2004-10-30T13:51:00.000+08:00

5 things that i fear:
- ghosts ?
- frogs! theyre disgusting..
- pple dying or rather war lol
- being alone
- i dono larh

5 things that make me laugh:
- stoicies
- TEN
- the show, just for laughs! hahaha some are damn hilarious
- sometimes my 'dumbdad' =p
- my memories

5 things/people i love:
- my family =)
- stoicies
- TEN
- my bed
- money! mwuahhaha

5 things i hate:
- selfish peeps
- hypocrites
- being controlled (okay who likes tt?)
- being poor
- sometimes me? yup

5 things i don't understand:
- just life itself
- why my brain is so small -.-
- why cant we just enjoy life since we ll all die one day
- poa
- why the weather is so bloody hot brhh

5 things on my desk:
- books, mags, pencil box & stuff
- water bottle
- camera (since dono when its there)
- handphone
- FOOD, essential for studying! hehe

Right now i am:
- breathing
- typing, surfing the net
- sleepy
- lazy to study
- dreaming of 24th nov. or isit 23rd?

5 negative facts about me:
- i slack alot esp when the os is here
- think im fat
- stubborn? i think so
- personal stuff
- fantasise ALOT

5 positive facts about me:
- am independent =D
- willing to die for my family
- loves everyone ard me X 3

5 things i plan to do before i die:
- travel ard the world !!
- get married and have adorable kids
- grow old hahaha dont wnana die young
- wanna party all night long
- work and get my first pay (cant think of anything else)

5 things i can do:
- play
- eat
- sleep
- talk alot
- shop!

5 Things i Can't Do:
- get married now
- get good grades
- stop dreaming of stuff
- get my face buried in books
- stop watching tv nowadays

Top 5 things that turn you on about the opposite sex:
- humourous
- fun-loving
- charming eyes
- caring, sweet
- wears a watch! lol sounds stupid but i dono? jus looks decent i think

Top 5 things you say the most:
- huh?
- bye, hello
- what !
- lol
- idiot

2004-10-28T19:53:00.000+08:00

Dreams are an example of the collective unconcious.

Artists are especially sensitive to this, memories and lives surrounding a place.

Anyone, living or dead, surround us in different ways ;

whether it be their soul, or their mind.

Of those who feel the current of those around them,

most are aware that they belong to a separate part of the subconcious.

Those who cannot distinguish, often go mad.

2004-10-27T03:05:00.000+08:00

i hope switzerland comes out for olevels ; social studies
but wdv i hope always no hope one.. so yeah =/

aaaah ignorance is bliss ?
im into purple these days.

2004-10-26T14:43:00.000+08:00

SEVEN more days to OLEVELS
this is no joke man.. only 7 more days and i haven started on my s/s yet. HAH?
damnnit howwww. this is scary. im gonna regret if i do badly for this shitt !!
am all shrunken up from stress =( studying sucks

omg i think im gonna get a F9 for poa
how to study poa! somebody tell me, save me ?
dont ask me to do the tys cos in the end all i get is the T-format and tada thats my ans =/
wahhh HOW. thousands of HOWs revolving round my head.

im gonna die. so badly.

Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right i swear im right
Swear i knew it all along
And i am flawed
But i am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself

2004-10-22T17:38:00.000+08:00

i wish the world can change
i wish life could be better
i wish i had smarter brains
i wish there were lesser smart asses out there

2004-10-20T11:45:00.000+08:00

do you ever feel like breaking down?
do you ever feel out of place?
like somehow you just dont belong
and no one understands you

do you ever wanna run away?
do you lock yourself in your room?
with the radio on turned up so loud
that no one hears you screaming

no you dont know what it's like
when nothing feels alright
you dont know what its like to be like me

to be hurt
to feel lost
to be left out in the dark
to be kicked
when you re down
to feel like you've been pushed around
to be on the edge of breaking down
and no ones there to save you
no you dont know what it's like

welcome to my life

i cant believe u can get jailed for downloading songs.. what stupid law is that?
-.- no money buy cd also wrong lol

2004-10-18T22:30:00.000+08:00

practical was o-k but yet bad! hahaha
im not making any sense i know but ahhh, i dono how to describe lah
i guess the whole experiment thing was okay but its the qns that i dono how to ans! irritating

hrm i guess everyone is being a nerd now
u know those typical bookworms, study and study all day long
yawns.. i cant do that. i wonder how they do it!
its really like.. being in jail? some sort of

pearl harbour is nice! first time watching it
josh hartnett looks so cute in the show !!
he has this charm, this attraction that is jus so.. breath-taking ? LOL!
*sings take my breath awaaaay..
and the mask is on next wk! wheehee the last time i watched that show was in.. erm i cant rmb hehe but i liked that show! so i dont care im gonna watch it tralalas

alrighto time for america's next top model! ciao peeps!

2004-10-16T01:41:00.000+08:00

long + tiring day

finally graduated! whoohooo happy like siao
but cried alil during the whole quite-boring-ceremony. ms tan's fault!
she cried while she spoke and its jus so bloody touching !? lol
at the end of the day, everyone seem to like her the most! hahah
okay shes those teacher that shamir mentioned is like durian ;
hard on e outside but soft on e inside hahaha. some theory!

went to some wedding dinner jus now
rushed there like HELL cos we were late, but wth! it started at like 2045 when the actual time was 1930
ironically, i found this on the card :
" your punctuality will be greatly appreciated "
yawns.. so much for being punctual? lol
but anyway the groom is kinda close to moi
so its worth all the wait. watching him get married is like watching my good old bro get married! hee
i wanna get married too. soon in e near future !!! =)
m and i got to see alot of pple i haven met in quite some time . and the story goes on and on and on ...

came hm. tired like pig but becos i bathed so i cant slp. now im gonna try and snore so BYEee!!

2004-10-14T13:41:00.000+08:00

im at home! home sweet home
going to sch is like almost doing nth
skipping sch is like slping until 12pm (: hehe
haven done that for so long too
hrm not hungry at all but i ordered kfc anyway! my parents are home so, yay! i wont be getting fat alone hahaha *evil grin

olevels are coming in 18 days !! noooo so fast
not prepared for it at all; everyone seemed to have started alr. i think im quite alone =/ better start on smth asap
after the Os everyone is gonna go out as if like theres no tmr mwuahah
but shittys we re gonna start sch in march if we go poly ?
PLS DONT DO THIS TO US
its so unfair.. i dont care, better not let it happen !#%@*

tmr's graduation day
i am finally gonna be freee from bgss! tralalas
after this yr i wont need to see or hear mrs song talk her cock speeches again =D
the only sad thing is leaving frens.. nvm we ll all stay in contact hehe
KFC IS HERE buhbye!

2004-10-10T01:05:00.000+08:00

im happy im happy
im happy im happy
=) x 100000000

had balls of fun today out at town with TEN
we saw the spore idol pple haha even those that gt out already !
hehe we didnt really do much but the thing is that theyre all funny + loving pple.
so hanging out together dont really need anything fun to make the outing fun
err.. am i making any sense? nvm if im not ! lol dono how to explain..

anyway the fact is just that im oh-so-in-love with my fellow friends.
TEN is so so special to me
i love them THIS much

haha thinking bout it.. theres lotsa amazing thing bout all of them
different characters and funny past llol
okokok i better nt talk too much
im tired! GOODNIGHT

ten rocks my socks (:

2004-10-08T21:39:00.000+08:00

my results are terribily horrible
dont even ask me about my l1r4 =/
haven tell my mum bout it yet. i dun dare!
it sucks to see everyone getting so gd grades and YET they say its bad
pls lah? they dono what BAD is all about !! makes pple like me feel like a piece of poopoo with a fly as topping
also sucks when u feel that ure stupid but u cant be bothered to do anything bout it.
okay maybe the prob lies in urself =(
given up? maybe

anyway we started on this intensive revision thingie in sch
moving ard during different lessons
dono whether it works but poa was good!
for once, i actually get wad mr lee was saying. lol hes quite gd la..
i must do well for my poa alreadddy, easier den amaths. trytrytry

olevels please be over but dont come !
i know tt doesnt make sense but tts what i hope happens!
there can be miracles, when if believe

yawns spore idol sucks
jerry got in! LIKE WTH RIGHT he cant even bloody sing + chris should have gotten out?
at least i think david sings better den him
bah this whole thing isnt even fair.. if they got tons of frens of cos theyll win right! zzz
aiyah heck! haha must start studying already! (right laney? lol)
no more tv and com.

i will survive? =p

2004-10-05T19:30:00.000+08:00

sch was waaay bad
was falling aslp in class =/ yst night sucked
scratching and flipping in bed

got back some results already
as expected, they sucked la!
haven get everything back but yurp, i know im not even gonna get a B !! =(
is it becos i haven studied enough?
or is it becos im jus plain dumb? I studiedddd lor. so it must be the plain dumb thingie
argh so bloody sad
my mum's gonna kill me and olevels are like 28 days awy ?!
shittys so fast.. i nv realise it lol

everyone seems to be on their way
they start studying already
i want to but i cant and i hope i can but i cant
all i need is time

2004-10-03T15:15:00.000+08:00

sundays

officially

suck!

period.

sunday = boring day

really nth to do lor? i hate sundays! so much

and sunday means tmrs monday and nobody likes monday! booooo

gonna get back results tmr.. how?

im gonna die, really!

i dun want to know but yet i wanna know =/

how ironic.

2004-10-03T01:24:00.000+08:00

white chicks is DAMN nice!
seriously, its soooo funny. u can die laughing
bwhahaha okayokay its not that funny but its really nice. reaaallie
actually they dun even look like those girls -.-
but its still nice larh o-k ? trust meee hehe

todays been a fun day out with e girls =)
fun but tiring ah.. dono why too
i feel so sick! haha bleah ooh ya
why must green represents sick ah? i dont understand how colours can represent our feelings; like i feel so blue.
SO? why must blue means sad/down ! WHY
blue is such a nice colour! it should mean happy to me
lol.. okay why do i care -.- talk so much crap
okokok self control
nyway im like really tired now, i can slp right here sitting up.

so gdnight everyone
swtdreams tonight

2004-10-01T02:15:00.000+08:00

yays! prelims are officially over
what more could i ask for ? hehe
btw, gdluck to those pple having dnt tmr
hang on there! its already e last paper :)

amaths p2 was a total killer today
im announced dead! shittys
but who cares already la.. its all over! (for now that is)
only prelims over and im already on cloud nine
lol imagine after the os? woohoo! i think i might go crazy maaan
fly into e skyyy

i cant wait for sat ! hee
and today dont feel like a thurs
thursdays were never this good before! like totally relaxing =p
muwhaaha feels good to know that tmr is a non-schling day, seriously.
i need a good night's slp !!
ve been havin latelate nights and early mornings; too lil slp. need my beauty sleep!
ahah righttt.. too lil slp but still online at this hour -.-

okay larh! going to slp.. yawns my eyes are really half closed
night pple! swtdreams tonight

loonie is cookie
cookie is loonie x)

2004-09-29T19:13:00.000+08:00

HITLER AND NAZI

GERMANY CAME OUT!

u must be thinking lucky me ?

well ure wrong! so wrong

yah it did came out. but u know what?

i freakin didnt know how to do part (b) !!

)= 13 marks okay basket so sad lo

im so stupid, dohhh they said it was the bloody violence & intimidation thingie

i thought of it okay! why?

why didnt i write it down ...

haiyah nyways im gonna fail practically all my subjects

poa was one of the worse man..

i guess i'll jus have to work harder for olevels ?_?

alright now the thing is tt
i cant wait for tmr to come! *squeals

the toughest but last-est paper, so who cares bout the tough-ness!

haven study but i predict it to be another red mark already lol

okok im gonna work my brains off now

byee people gdluck =p

2004-09-28T20:34:00.000+08:00

i just realised that i like history more than poa
haha i know its so o_o !! but i dono why

anyhow history still sucks la?
pleeaseee let gorbachev's chapter come out..
its the shortest and one of the easiest! or maybe let hitler come out okay?
ah just let smth i studied come out plsss
if not im gonna die a terrible death =(

prelims are gonna be over soon
hah, just wait! im gonna have fun this wkend :)
even ms tan was like; thursday after amaths
fri sat and sun dont study!
go play relax and everything den monday back to normal
haha theres nv a good ending uh?
sigh

reasons for this that this that factors for this that this that
my brain's exploding

2004-09-26T18:40:00.000+08:00

sick and tired of this world
theres no more air

tripping over myself, going nowhere
waiting, suffocating, no direction
i took a dive and

on the way down
i saw you, and you saved me from myself
and I won't forget the way you loved me
and on the way down
i almost fell right through
but I held on to you

2004-09-26T18:26:00.000+08:00

o_o ! i can actually blog using my com!
my com is abit of a tootsie lol

im not slacking, im not!
im jus relaxing after hours of studying s/s but still getting stuck at Venice.
hahaha failure =l
ah i read abit of maths anyway!
nvm i hope wdv i study will come out pleaseee..
cos it tends to go the other way round

boohoo my poa is a goner
gonegonegone!
plus history, hmmm try my best larh
hehe been so stressed up! i bet everyone is too
after the prelims still gotta work hard (thats the worse thing, one exam after e other!)
den finally that day will come (x quickquick come we re all ready + waiting to party all night long!

*dreams*
wo deng deng deng deng deng ...
patience is a virtue =)
i better get back to studying hahaha CIAO!

im hungry.

2004-09-23T19:08:00.000+08:00

PRELIMS GO TO HELL!

studied so FREAKING hard for physics but it turned out like shit (for me that is)
no it wasnt exactly difficult
im just stupid lah can?
maths wasnt too good either..
but at least it was better den phy (i said i was stupid)
and the stupidirritatingdumb bio mcqs
how could i get the all the easy qns wrong ?!!? how could i..
its really like chicken feet u know !?
ya chicken, yet i dono
f*** mcqs only do so badly
my paper can go and die. go burn in hell. whatever shit. cant be bothered now

not in any mood to study anymore
every subject stinks now
goodlucks dont come in use =l

2004-09-22T14:29:00.000+08:00

skipped sch skipped sch =)
apparently, only 14 pple went to sch today lol
stupid sch with their stupid moving tables and chairs. grh

im suppose to be studying now but.. hehe
took a small break
i hate to study. but if i dun study, i ll fail !
hellppp.. tried doing some maths yst but it really demoralised me
RGS emaths prelim paper; standard abit too high for me (or rather not abit)
lol adverse effect eh. i didnt know so many questions
ITS ONLY E MATHS

wonder what im gonna do with my add maths
no time to finish bio so tmr i think i wont be able to study amaths
this is bad, real bad. i knew i was gonna regret starting late :(
actually the worst thing is that i knew i was gonna regret but i did nth about it

theres gotta be more to life ?

im happy that one paper is gone! english
it was o-kay to me but my okay usually turns out bad larh
hahaha im a big fat failuuure
sigh better get my butt back to studying
1 + more mths and i ll be free!
im counting down to those days *dreams*

2004-09-17T21:38:00.000+08:00

aloha! yes its friday once again
time is TELEPORTING now. not flying
prelims start next wk!
i still cant accept this reality ..
too much to be done in so little timeee
blame myself for starting late =l
but i started on my science already anyways.
phew BUT i still needa race with time! =(
blooody, im scared. what to do!
i dont wanna fail lehhh pls !?

lol im already fantasizing on what i will do after the Os! joycie melon also keke

i wanna be rich
its good to be rich
u get whatever u want and u can jus live life like simple bananas
hmm.. some pple are jus born lucky! so jealous so envious
im gonna give my parents a good life nxt time

its 10pm & double yays!
my show my show, im gonna watch
den that swimming show at 11 + [lalala angie, u cant watch! hah =p]
one after the other. hehe
10pm is now like my routined-tv-life [tv marathon? hahaha]
okoks im missing the start
cheerios ! *runs to tv

2004-09-14T21:48:00.000+08:00

caught the when animals attack show on aXn it made me realised that animals are scary creatures! haha
they bite they kill & they can do almost anything..
dolphins are the nicest!
but then again, i'll nv know! hehe

back to the real sch life
hectic stressed and everything but today was alright
the new poa teacher talk like machine gun!
so fast and so much; good but boring
everyone couldnt take it lol
but at least there wasnt any remedials today! shalala

i wanna start studying
okay no i dun! but i need to. i must!
prelims next wk
wah.. like so fast, time's flying on ufo
it seems like whenever i feel like studying, i cant find my book -.-

freedom soon

2004-09-13T20:58:00.000+08:00

new layout x)

today was okay except that my prelim practical is prolly gone!
boohoos i didnt study
theres sch tmr! real sch as in lessons.. so sad
nvm 2 more mths and its all over
4 yrs of hard work for this damned day
i cannot wait!

i was watching tv today den i saw this top 10 fast food restaurants thingie
its so cool.. the fast food outlets in america
is like SO much more grand and nice and everything compared to us
spore suck? no larh, jus small!
and do you know that in the world, someone die in every 12 mins?
i think thats long! i expected the ans to be 1 min or smth hahaah

shittys i haven done any hw
haven started on anything
i better go do bio! or physics, just smth!
sigh its suffering time.. ciao

2004-09-11T01:39:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KESHIA
yahhoos its friday, my fav day!
haha but its been some boring holidays
slacking at hm all day long
oh and i caught cinderella story tt day!
its damn nice! a girly flick.. hehe
chad micheal murray is SO CUTE
can i hug him ?! lol

i still haven started studying
can u believe it ? shit
lyn is sucha SHIT
daaamn i think i can die already larh
im worried but im not doing anything! =/

caught anacondas today
hahaha it was a boring movie
and its all my fault =X
anyway went to kesh bday party at night
finally sweet sixteen! lol nc16 movies
it was quite a fun day anyways x)

yawns im sooooo dead tired now
blog another day! byebye nights people

2004-09-05T17:35:00.000+08:00

dont think that you can tell me what to think
im the one who knows whats good for me
and i'm stating my independence
gonna take the road im gonna take
and im gonna make my own mistakes
its my life - i decide